It's about that time again; where I try and find inspiration for the upcoming collection and release.
While I have always enjoyed drawing and art, drawing for a specific purpose can sometimes be daunting. I often get stuck halfway through a design or even a collection idea as a whole and wonder if I'm doing something wrong. I often put too much pressure on myself, which in turn creates blocks within.
Ideas come and go, nothing is truly permanent but that's what makes it beautiful.
Yes, it's hard to unlearn things but to anyone who struggles with their own idea of self; you are not alone, take a deep breath.
Of late, I have been dealing with "burnout". I've never really known what that word meant until very recently. For years I have lived in survival mode, just trying to get through one day at a time, never really seeing why I've struggled. These last few months my body and my mind started to give up; having constant and painful stomach issues, seemingly random bouts of emotions and a lack of will to do anything but stare into space.
It took me a while to realise but this is what burnout can look like. So I stopped. Everything. I started listening to my mind and my body, changed what and how I eat but most importantly stopped being so damn hard on myself and trying to live up to my own unsustainable and frankly silly standards. We are no machines, we are human and we need breaks, no matter what they look like.
So I'm here to tell you; if you're struggling with things similar to this please be gentle on yourself, emotionally, physically and even spiritually. If you need that break, take it. And try to think of it this way; if you tried to hold someone else to the extreme standards you set for yourself, you would feel uncomfortable doing that.
Treat yourself better and kinder.